|Our wonderful Student of the Month is Irina, whose happy place is in the yoga room with her partner Martin. She’s always smiling and has been rocking out quite a few double classes lately – go girl!|
I believe we all have a Bikram Yoga Story in us. I am honoured to share mine.
As a childhood trauma survivor, I have worked very hard for most of my life to re-build myself, and to heal the wounds of our female lineage, so I don’t pass it into my daughter. I was the lucky one, I have succeeded. But everything collapsed in 2010. I have lost my mother and my Granny ( she was my rock !!! ) and I have found myself divorced as well. I felt alone, broken, empty.
I still remember driving to my first class. I was numb but hopeful. 20 minutes into the postures, and I wanted to cry and run. I think I swore ( silently ) way too many times, and I believe, the teacher has noticed my angry Russian face also.
I have stayed. I came back the next day. And the next day. And the next day. Soon enough, I have noticed I no longer feeling numb or empty. Way too many emotions experienced during the class ( you know the rollercoaster ), have replaced that emptiness and pain. Yoga Community have embraced me, and I have never felt lonely again.
Funniest memory of that time was every time I would come out of Camel, I would cry. At first, I was so embarrassed, but soon I have realised that I am healing. For the next 10 years, I have tried many other things, neglected my practice way too many times, got injured, found my Soul partner. Still, I have always remembered how Bikram Yoga made me feel.
I am back, and I am here to stay.
Binny, and all the teachers, thank you so much for your determination and huge hearts. Thank you for continuing to run the studio in such turbulent times: you are that safe haven to many of us, and we need you.